Thursday, October 16, 2008

Makes you cough and try to get it out.. :)

I just needed to get my emotions out. *Warning this is a post regarding my feelings, if you are only interested in what's going on in our lives or Brad's crazy antics feel free to stop reading now* Well I may have lost my entire auience but I can't focus today and I think maybe jotting down what's racing through my mind will help. ok.. go

So I'm so grateful for facebook and the opportunities it gives me to keep in touch with old friends and see what they're up to. But lately the things that a few of my friends are up to aren't really all that great. It's hard growing up in Utah where almost all my friends were members.. actually the few that weren't just joined the church, how ironic. It's so hard to see good friends slip away from the church and delve into a life of sin.. It made me realize that in general it is sooo much easier to give into sin that deny our selves. I know I fall into that category most of the time. But I have the tendency to think too much and most of all care too much. When I realized how these people I cared about were living it made me want to cry. I often don't do what's right but I'm trying and I'm blessed to be able to come home to a safe place where the spirit resides and know that my family and friends and most importantly Brad love me. I'm really grateful for my parents and the leaders I had that helped me to gain a testimony while I was young. If it had been different I know myself well enough that I wouldn't have chosen to live the way I do now. And I'm so grateful that my parents gave me freedom to make my own choices it helped me to realize that the gospel is not restrictive but it protects us from the things that cause us misery and immense pain. I hope my friends learn that sooner than later. And I want to commit myself to doing better and being more grateful for the light that I do have.

8 comments:

Monica said...

I hate when friends disappoint you too. But, I love the title of you post!

B Dubya said...

I was hoping you'd read it. Only a select few will have the joy of getting it but I KNEW you would!

The Daines said...

I'm sorry you're having a rough time. I don't know what to say other then, the only thing you can do is love those people even in the midst of their crappy choices. I love how you applied it to yourself. I totally agree that it's so important that no matter what you keep the spirit in your house. I really miss you guys, tell Brad hi for us!

The Osborns said...
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The Osborns said...

I am more interested in your lives than just what's on the surface, so THANK YOU for your sincere thoughts and feelings!

Your concern for others' true happiness is genuine. You are a lover, not a hater. I love you girl!

Freaky Wizzard MoM said...

What's worse than friends is siblings!! So I totally know what you might be feeling right now. Partly that is the reason for the name of my blog "Cream of the Crop" --- it's sad, and it hurts, and you always wonder WHY?? but, just know they are making their choices and praying for them, and still being their friends "from a distance" is the best thing for them. Sorry you're having such a terrible "emotional" day. By the way it was fun chatting with you tonight at Enrichment. Thanks for your friendship. You and Brad are two great people, and I'm glad that you have such a great relationship.

Brinn said...

yup, life's full of tough stuff... it's hard, huh? I like your blog and will keep updated on it, except... I see you often enough to be in the loop of what's going on with you, but I'll still enjoying checking up on the blog.

Your wonderful Miranda... so glad we are friends :o)

Matt and Stacy said...

I understand what you're going through sis. It's a hard thing to watch your friends do stupid things and not be able to do any thing about it. Just remember to love them and pray for them and the Lord will do the rest.